I'm Back at It

A lot of stuff has changed lately.  I got REALLY busy and I just couldn't make time to blog.  I'm not sure I really have time now, but I miss it and some of the craziness has slowed down--well, sort of-- I just started typing and then my little shadow hurt her fingers and needed me (it's like they know when I'm doing something I'm not sure I have time for), but the out of the ordinary craziness has lessened.

Some of you have been here before, some of you didn't know I had a blog.  Welcome, everyone.  I am still trying to find my voice, but kind of for different reasons.  I'll probably re-post my introduction (even though some of that has changed), just because a lot of it is still true and I don't really want to totally re-write an introduction about myself.  

We moved.  In almost-mid-June, Josh was offered a job as the school administrator at a Lutheran grade school in the same town as the address of his parents farm.  We moved on July 25 (Yes, you read that correctly... we decided to move and moved in about a month and a half.  I told you, I got really busy.)  So, I've been about the business of getting us settled in the new house, making sure my children are adapting and settling and being the behind the scenes for my husband in his new job.  And trying not to stress too much about the old house that's still on the market. Things are going well, but it takes time to completely adjust and we're still working on it.  But, I do think it's safe to say that we are all happy to be here.

A couple of months ago, when I first started thinking about getting back into blogging, I got a shocking message from an acquaintance, calling me out for a bunch of things, telling me I was incredibly negative, and that I was so horrible that people felt sorry for my husband and frequently talked about it behind my back.  Horrible things to say to a person, especially once they have moved away and there is really no point.  But, she did and I was very hurt.  I also panicked, thinking everyone (including my true friends) felt this way.  So, through tears, I deleted all of my blog posts, since some of the things she referenced were from blogs I had written.  I have come to realize (with the help of some of my good friends) that the problems she had were her own and that she didn't know me well enough to make any of these judgments.  I know she is going through her own stuff and this is apparently how she copes.  I hope her venting at me helped her in some way (I truly do, I'm not just saying that).  But, that explains why this is the only post on my blog right now.  

I am not going to just throw away all of my other blogs, but, the one positive thing (I guess) to come out of it is that I am going to re-read every post before it gets the chance to be re-posted.  My status has changed, if you will.  I am now the wife of the school administrator at the Lutheran grade school.  This is/was not news to me, and I knew some things might need to change a bit, her note just triggered me making sure those changes happen.  I don't think (like I said, I have to re-read) any of what I have posted previously is inappropriate and I stand by my work, but, being in a small town (or towns) where everyone knows everyone else, with a husband that is holding a semi-prominent job, I do need to be careful.  I am a fairly honest person, and maybe some of that honesty isn't stuff that needs to be shared publicly.  So, as I read through, I will re-post the best and/or most important ones and leave the rest behind.  There will be new thrown in the mix and hopefully all of this will help me continue to find my voice... or voices, particularly the new ones.  

Thanks for reading and joining me on this journey.